It's hard for me to ask for help. I have some deep seeded belief I should be able to get everything done that needs doing. My husband Floyd has all but given up on encouraging me to ask others for help.
When I started believing I could build this business to a point of leaving my day job and open a store, I knew I would need help. I hired a small business coach. My husband and boys helped put the store together. Eventually I got some legal help, an assistant and even a bookkeeper. Before I knew it I was building a team!
Asking for help became easier because I had people who I trusted who always came through for me. Until the day someone didn't.
I wasn't ready for the disappointment. Why should I be? That's what trust is.
The one person I trusted most let me down and I couldn't forgive her. It was me. I let myself down.
I deserved no pity, no forgiveness. I was arrogant and over promised what I could deliver. And when the time came that I knew I had not delivered, I had no one to blame but myself.
I shrank back away from everyone in frustration and distrust. I questioned everything. I felt betrayed and fearful and terribly frustrated.
But this morning I remembered that Islanders never quit. I reminded myself that I had people counting on me. I knew I couldn't wallow in self pity and negativity because I had a store to get open.
So this morning, with coffee in hand and Tiny Sina by my side, I faced the day ahead and left the mistakes of the past where they belong, behind me. I brought with me a little bit of kindness for myself that in the past I wouldn't have felt. I've learned from my Islanders that you guys don't expect me to be perfect and you will still be there for me when I fail.
Your love and friendship has brought me the ability to have more love and compassion for myself.
I love you guys!
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