Yep, I said it. This isn't going to be one of those flowery...I love my kids so much, it makes my heart feel like it is going to explode blog posts. Nope. No way!
I am going to keep this really, really, really, blunt freaking honest.
Yesterday, my 9 year old told me he hated his family and was going to run away.
I told him that was fine and I would help him pack. Okay, I more like yelled it back at him. Like, didn't even pause. I just let loose. There was some other things said in that moment, things that I am going to choose not to type - - you can guess what those are!
Now hold on, let me give you the big picture, don't label me a bad parent yet! You, see for almost 2 hours before this explosion, he pouted about not wearing the right shirt, couldn't find his favorite hat (which then led to a melt down), hid in his closet because his black jeans were dirty, I mean it was a non-stop "the world is out to get me" kind of day. So when I decided he could not go to play with his friend, because he was acting like a little sh*t, then he proceeded to tell me he hates me. Me?????
So I proceeded to pack his little suitcase as he watched in disbelief. Which then led to tears, and him locking me out of his bedroom when I put his bag by the door. This then led to me threatening to take the door off, which then led to him opening it and saying he was sorry.
Yeah, I wasn't going to apologize first (don't give them power, they smell fear!)
Now, I LOVE my boys. As a mom, I would pretty much do anything, including start a war, for them. However......here it comes......they are people that I wouldn't hang out with if they weren't mine! Man, that feels good to admit.
I mean, they have way different personalities than I do. Seriously, ask yourself if your kids are the kind of people you would of hung out with when you were a kid. Mine? No way. I mean, my oldest is JROTC.....I made fun of those kids in high school!
Parenting is a major b*tch sometimes, that I just want to punch in the face. I am tired, broke and a little irritated most of the time. They literally take all of my money and energy! No one tells you this is how its going to be! Or maybe they do and we don't listen?
Parenting isn't pretty. We love them, care about them, want to be involved....and it would be so much easier if they always picked up after themselves, never threw a temper tantrum and were total little angels.
But, that is not how they are, so, just try to survive! Hug them, love them, understand that you are blessed to have them. BUT.. remember it is okay to hide from the sometimes and admit that you just don’t want to be around them sometimes!
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Sina Sena is a small island, Alaska girl, who has BIG goals! She is a novice coffee connoisseur loves romance novels and is always down to eat sweets! She is married to her high school sweetheart, and they are trying to not get run over by their three boys! As a mom she believes that it is important to maintain her own identity and knows she is better because she works hard everyday to pursue her own goals. If you ever want to talk business, it is what makes her want to leap out of bed everyday (except in the winter, because Alaska is freaking cold then)!