Once upon a time, I worked in a great office.
I got to be around an incredible team 4 days a week. Laughed most of the time, was eager to go to work, lucky to be where I was. So what possessed me to seek out more? Why did I not realize at that time that I had what a lot of employees want. A place I really liked to work! Why did I decide that accepting a higher role, doing more was actually a good idea? Especially when it didn't make me any happier, instead I had more feelings of doubt and regret than ever?
It was because of my ego.
You see, I had seen success in my role. I was getting noticed for my leadership skills, positive outlook, high energy, creativity and new job offers started rolling in. Bigger money, more responsibility, better title, company credit card, etc, etc, etc.
They stroked my ego.
And it felt good. Like, really good
Like, really, REALLY good!!
It felt so undeniably good to be the person they wanted. It was exhilarating to be recognized for my hard work. I felt like I had made it. Like, I was someone now.
So I left my fun job, my great team and I leapt into something bigger, but not better. And 3 years later, I wish I could rewind the clock and be back in that little office, with my team and loving where I worked.
I learned that being led by your ego can have dire consequences. Jobs you don't really want get accepted, you get stretched really thin in things you are not passionate about, you end up following a path that does not lead to joy.
I still struggle with this, to be honest. Sometimes I get a phone call and someone wants me to design something specific for them, or I get a job offer because they think I am amazing. My ego leaps at these offers. Because, it feels good. It feels good to be wanted.
But, I am learning to say "no". I am learning that loving what you do, be it working for a great company or building your business, is the most important thing. If you are working for a title, you might not find joy in that.
Just my thoughts.
Thanks for reading!