April 06, 2018 3 min read

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In 2015 I packed up my new product, complete with an over designed display, threw down $500 for an event (money I did not have), and thought for sure I would sell out of everything. (Oh man, if I could back and slap myself)!

That was the looooongest weekend of my life, not only because I was standing around for most of the three days not doing anything, but the aftermath of what I took as a huge failure, stayed with me for along time. 

Did I sell out of everything? Not even close. That thought is laughable now. Was I heartbroken? Yes. Did I feel like I was a huge failure? 

Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes.

In fact, I went home every night of those 3 days and cried. Not only had I invested money into this, but so much time. Time that was fueled by excitement, passion and what I felt like was a sure thing. Before that weekend, I had not entertained the thought that I would not be successful. There was not a "what if" moment at all.

So, when I felt the sting of embarrassment, it hurt really bad. Rejection sucks.

It can make you want to throw in the towel, to give up without a second thought. I mean, admit you did not know what you were doing (because you probably didn't) and disappear into the background. Then, this whole thing will go away, people will forget, tuck your tail between your legs and slink off.

You will remember though.

You will be saddled with that knowledge that you didn't work harder. Yes, maybe you didn't know what you were doing. Maybe your business plan was really, really bad and had no real scope to it. Perhaps you had such high expectations, that anything less than hitting those would be failure in your eyes. You will always wonder if you could have turned it around.

What I didn't do, is give up. I went back to the drawing board. Revamped. Came up with new ideas. Tried to find my niche. Sepnt more money, more time. Becamse obsessed to the point of exhaustion. I asked questions, read blogs, paid for classes, and a lot of the time I felt like I was spiraling out of control.

But, the mere idea of failing, having to feel that disappointment and know that I did nothing to try and come back from it, would have sat with me forever. Fear of failure is what keeps me going, keeps me evolving and learning. 

It is my biggest motivator.

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Sina Sena is a small island, Alaska girl, who has BIG goals! She is a novice coffee connoisseur loves romance novels and is always down to eat sweets! She is married to her high school sweetheart, and they are trying to not get run over by their three boys! As a  mom she believes that it is important to maintain her own identity and knows she is better because she works hard everyday to pursue her own goals.  If you ever want to talk business, it is what makes her want to leap out of bed everyday (except in the winter, because Alaska is freaking cold then)!


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